its over !

yes ! 1st semester is over ! yesterday was the last day of our FINALS and CLASS .. Quite sad but at the same time, were happy, and excited with it cause will have our SEMBREAK and take a break for 3 weeks .. Totally were SCARED at the same time .. know why?! cause were afraid of what our grades will be .. ahaha .. Were actually quite confused with our GRADES .. We dont know if we will PASSED the subject or FAILED .. waaaa .. Scary ! ahaha ..

If ever we FAILED, we will shurely be on summer class .. Even we want to enjoy summer by rest and go out of town and outings we cant .. Cause we have to take up the summer class for a particular subject .. grRrr ! dont want to go on summer ! waaaa .. But if ever we have to face the challenge .. ahaiz ..

One of our prof. told us that FACULTY of ENGINEERING of UST is the summer capital of UST .. waaaa .. Were part of that faculty ! ahaha .. Honestly i'm telling you its really hard to get high points in out faculty .. The subjects was very hard .. Were so "PROBLEMATIC !" ahaha .. like a nEw word? .. but yeah .. Totally were so problematic with the scores we get .. Then there was a time that we thought we already dont have problem with the subject cause we know we passed .. BUT its not ! Our prof. told us that we might failed the subject .. waaaa .. It cannot be !

But as the time goes by we said to each other that our prof. was just joking .. Cause we know we passed the subject and there's nothing to worry about .. ehehe ..

CONFUSING?! o_0?!

ahahaha .. Dont mind about it .. I just make you confused with things .. ahaha .. bad !

Well, hoping will not go to summer .. Cause we really dont want to be there !

yieeee !

ciao guyzs !
Till my next BLOG !

Thankz ! ü

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FINALS !

waaa .. finals is coming .. tomorrow is the DAY ! .. it seems too fast for it .. well, i guess days and time are really fast .. but still I cant believe that our 1st semester will END after 1 week of our finals .. FINALS is quite scaring, I don't felt this feeling beFore .. maybe because it was my first time, and still adjusting from HIGH SCHOOL LIFE to COLLEGE LIFE ! Really hard, but this is life full of changes everyday, every year, every decades .. sigh ! ..

Something is really bothering me for FINALS .. But I dont know what is it, still looking for that thing, cause I can't figure it out ! ..

eveN I feel this things right now .. I now there's someone who is guiding me, and will help me to fullfil this feeling of being scared and confused o_0?!

I go to church and ask for heLp to GOD .. I know he is the onLy one who can help me right now with this kind of situation i'm facing .. asking for his BLESS for our FINALS ..

THANK GOD ! cause he's really answering my prayers .. I know he's guiding me and he will guide me at our FINALS .. :D

still scared and nervous BUT ! not that much like what I felt yesterday :)

well, I guess we really need to be strong and dont loose hope ..

cause GOD will help and guide us all through out ..

.. to make you understand ..

A little conversation from me and my cousin ‘thomas‘ gets to be so deep. From talking about a simple thing we come up talking about a deep and serious topic. At first we used to talk about why he and his schoolmate fought. Then for a little while we both stop talking and the four sides of my room seems to be so quiet. Until i asked him “bro alam m ung feeling ng, akala mo yung mga kasama m nuon wala nang makakahigit s kanila .. hangan sa may na’meet ka’ng ibang tao tas nahigitan nya yung mga taong kasama m nuon p??“. Well, honestly I really dont know why is he the one I asked. But, the truth is I know he can understand. Somehow my cousin is a type of guy who is seriously always using logic when it comes to this matter. I mean even he is only 1st year high school he can understand things like this.

.. hmm .. well, going back to my topic .. which the one I ask him ..

After I asked him he answer “oo, naranasan ko na din yan eh.“. Then i tell him “alam mo yon. araw-araw may na’me’meet tayong ibang tao na nagiging kaibigan natin, pero we never expect na mahihigitan nila yung mga taong akala mo hindi na mahihigitan ng iba.“. Until the time comes he give me his ideas. That time, while i’m listening to him I know somehow he can understand me but not as i want him to understand. As our conversation is going more deep and serious I was like thinking how can I explaine to him the real point I want to say and make him understand each and every situation.

Until I found the right words how can I explaine to him. Then I told him to listen to what will I say sabay sabi sakanya na “GUSTO KO KASI MAINTINDIHAN MO AKO .. “. As I continue telling him “ANG POINT KO LANG NAMAN KASI. BAKIT MAY MGA TAONG HINDI MAINTINDIHAN YUNG MGA BAGAY NA HINDI NAMAN MAHIRAP INTINDIHIN. KAYA FEELING NLA NAGKUKULANG KA NA.” then after that sabi nya sakin “NATURAL LANG NA MA’FEEL NILA YUN.“. Until I asked him if he can understand the real reason and point of what i’am sharing to him.

And then I found out he really really understand me as I want.

I didn’t know he feel the same with what I also feel about it. Ofcourse he make those things more clear to me by telling me the real story with what happened to him. And as I figure it out, we had the same.

Well I guess, I choose the right person to share those things.

Before I end this BLOG of mine, I just wanted for you guys to understand the real purpose why I want to post this. Especially for my friends!

-guys, may mga bagay na hindi q kayang ipaliwanag sa inyo kaze alam ko nde nyu rin aq maiintindihan. aaminin q na, natatakot ako sa mga magiging reaksyon nyu kze nde nman lahat kau naiintindihan aq. peo hangat kaya ko namang ipaliwanag, pinapaliwanag q naman sa inyo eh. peO sana lang wag nyu q pag isipan ng kung anu-anu. kung sino aq nung nakilala nyu aq .. aq pa din toh, wla namang ngbago. may mga nangyare lang na alam ko naman alam nyu, nakikita nyu sa kilos q peo ayaw nyu lang tangapin na gnun ung nararamdaman ko. nasasaktan na din aq hindi q lang cnasve kze auko n nang mahabang usapan, hangat kaya qo pang tiisin tinitiis q. kze auko masira kung anu ung meron tau. minsan naiilang na aq makipag usap kze nasaktan n aq eh, peo kinakausap pa din kita kze alam qo one of this days and times mawawala din ung pagka ilang qo. pero mahirap, kaya ngpapalipas nalng muna ako ng oras. guxto q munang maging tahimik na hangat maaari ung mga taong nkakaintindi nalang muna sken ung kakausapin ko. alam ko may pagka unfair, pero sana maging FAIR din naman kau saken. hindi ung ako nalng lagi ung iintindi sa inyo. tao din aq katulad nyu .. nasasaktan, nahihirapan, ..

-hihingi na din aq ng SORRY or PAXENXA .. kun anu man ung nagawa qo ..

_BUT ALL I WANTED IS FOR YOU TO UNDERSTAND THOSE THINGS!_

-_this has been me AC_-

> OUT ! <

JUNE. 07, 2008

June 7, 2008 a very special day in my liFe..which i ceLebrate my onCe a yEar my BIRTHDAY..at exacT 9:15 i wake up in the morning..and i remember birthday q na pLa..as i start my day alam q birthday q..but it seems like an ordinary day for me..nde q alam bket gnun nararamdaman q..but there’s a lot of reason na naiicp q why i feel that way..one is maybe causE wala aqo’ng handa or maybe cause wla mga friends q..but i really dont know the reason why..last birthday q andaming naging last..but this time andame namang first..its like u can say "MY TWO YEARS BIRTHDAY WITH FIRST AND LAST !" .. ehehe..wOw !

As the day going to be night..i know my birthday will end..but as the time was running hindi q pa din feel na birthday q..even there are people and friends who was greeting me a happy birthday..t already expect that my birthday will just be an ordinary day for everybody especially for me..i dont know but that’s the way i feel..para bang wLa aqo’ng dapat i-celebrate sa araw n toh..

But honestly i miss celebrating my birthday like beFore..un bang merong handa..then waiting for my friends and cousins..kwentuhan habang hinihintay ung pagkain..the iF the foOd is ready..mag-aAsaran na kme..saying to eacH other na "MAUNA KA NA ! ALAM NMAN NMEN KNINA KA PA GUTOM..KANINA MO PA INIINTAY UNG PAGKAIN !" .. mga dialouge na di q makakalimutan everytime i celebrate my birthday..

Haiz..nakakamizs..and one more thing i really miss is celebrating my birthday with my cousin nica and tom..kaya lng wla so nica..malayo dito kun nasan kame ni tom..haLa ! mag drama daw ba aq..peO to tell you honestLy..totoo lahat ng mga yan..NO JOKES..i miss this guyzZ who’s always willing to celebrate my birthday together with me..who’s ready to laugh and makes me happy everytime..but i guess there comes a time na nde kme makapag celebrate ng birthday q ng mag-kakasama..but still hoping makapag celebrate ule with them..

Maybe one thing na papasok sa isip mo pag nalaman na birthday is a giFt..more on materiaL things or simply as the money..well as i expect no gifts receive..ehehe..i dont expect to much of it guyzZ..ur greetings is already fine.. happy na aq dun..kze you remember my birthday..

Pero may natangGap aqo’ng gift..a very speciaL gift to a very special person in my life..na first time q mg celebrate ng birthday na kilala q xa..know what is this gift?..well a call from a person..this special person that i was saying is si kriss..yez si mumu..at exactly 11:19 am nag ring ung fone q..i saw her name..akala q its only a miss call from her..i was waiting na i-reject nya ung tawag nya..peO nde tlaga..then i decided to go to my room and answer it..then we talk..i was so shocked ! surprise from her..although nde un gift..i still consider it as a very memorable gift that i received from all my birthdays..and i will TREASURE this FOREVER..THANK YOU MUMU !

Ang happy ng birthday q nun tumawag xa..i enjOy talking to her..and pag naaalala q un bigla nalng aq mag smile..and saying to my seLf that i’m lucky having a friend like her..that’s why i’m happy..

Well i guess that is

VERY MEMORABLE BIRTHDAY

in my life that i will
truly treasure to my heart and mind forever..

THANK YOU GUYZZ ! ! !

Honestly i wanted to cry while i’m writting this..
cause while i’m writting this i just realized i’m so blessed
GOD gave me a friends who can always remember my birthday..

I LOVE YOU GUYZZ ! MWAHH !
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